holding on

to quote you, "these are difficult times." i completely agree. the past days has been so dark, i feel i was, and still am, in this pitch-black hole, broken-hearted/tormented heart-shaped hole and it feels as if there's no day coming.

i wantyed to cry it over to you the moment i saw you walk in.i wanted you to wrap your arms around me and feel even for a minute, warmth. genuine warmth. but then, how could i? it seems everybody in this world is trying to cope or is faced too with immeasurrable amount of pains and sufferrings that i knew, had i let my guards down, it would have been worse.

so i hold on, no matter how thin the rope is, i am holding on. i have to hold on. otherwise my whole universe will fall right in front of my face because the truth is, i am barely breathing. details of this is definitely unwriteable.

i take pleasure instead on the fact that i am surrounded by some good friends who are, although in a very limited way, keeping up with me.

and that though this dark hole seems to be so so deep, i remind myself, i know how to swim and i have borrowed some wings.

things will be better. i don't know when, but it will be.

and, by the way, i remember, i have kept enough strength to use, in case of emergency so please, come to me in case of emergency. this strength is, for two.

you take care. hold on too. i am holding on.
and sooner than you thought it would be, the fire will be extinguished and you will find yourself outside, with wings unclipped, spreading.

these are difficult times.indeed.
and so i am holding on.